[ x] I have consumed alcohol.

[ x] I have run away from home.

[x] I have lied to my parents about where I am.

[ ] I listen to political music.

[ ] I collect comic books.

[x] I shut others out when I'm depressed.

[ ] I open up to others easily.

[x] I am keeping a secret from the world.

[x] I watch the news.

[ ] I own over 5 rap CDs.

[ x] I own an iPod or MP3 player.

[ ] I own something from Hot Topic.

[ ] I love Disney Movies.

[x] I am a sucker for hair/eyes. 

[ ] I don't kill bugs.

[ x] I curse regularly.

[x] I paid for that cell phone ringtone.

[ ] I am a sports fanatic.

[ ] I have "x"s in my screen name.

[x] I have accidentally slipped lol into a conversation.

[ ] I love Spam.

[ ] I bake well.

[ x] I have worn pajamas to school.

[ ] I own something from Abercrombie.

[x] I have a job. 

[ ] I love Martha Stewart.

[ x] I am in love with love. 

[ ] I am guilty of tYpInG lIkE tHiS.

[x] I am self conscious.

[x] I like to laugh.

[ ] I smoke a pack a day.

[ ] I loved Perks of Being a Wallflower.

[ ] I loved Go Ask Alice.

[ ] I have cough drops when I'm not sick.

[ ] I can't swallow pills.

[ ] I eat fast food weekly.

[x] I've been out of this country. 

[x] I believe in ghosts.

[ ] I can't sleep if there is a spider in the room.

[x] I am really ticklish.

[ ] I see a therapist. No but I think I really need too

[ ] I love white chocolate.

[ ] I bite my nails.

[x] I am comfortable with being me.

[ x] I play computer games/video games.

[ x] I'm single. sort of

[ ] I'm in a myspace relationship.

[x ] I've gotten lost in my city

[x] I've seen a shooting star.

[x] I've had a serious surgery. Several infact....

[x] I've gone out in public in my pajamas.  

[x] I have kissed a stranger.

[x] I have hugged a stranger.

[ x] I have been in a fist fight.

[ ] I have been arrested.

[ ] I have laughed and had milk/pop come out of my nose.

[ x] I have pushed all the buttons on an elevator.

[ x] I have made out in an elevator.

[x ] I have sworn at my parents.

[x ] I have kicked a guy where it hurts.

[x] I have been close to love.  

[x] I have been to a casino.

[ ] I have been skydiving.

[x ] I have broken a bone.

[x] I have skipped school.

[x] I have flashed someone.

[ ] I have seen a therapist.

[x] I have done a split.

[x] I have played spin the bottle.

[x] I have had stitches.

[ ] I have drank a whole gallon of milk in one hour.

[x] I have bitten someone.

[ x] I have been to Niagara Falls. 

[x] I have had the chicken pox.

[ ] I have kissed a member of the same sex.   Nasty... 

[ ] I have crashed into a friend's car.

[ ] I have been to Japan.  

[ x] I have ridden in a taxi.

[x] I have shoplifted.

[ ] I have been fired.

[ ] I have had a crush on someone of the same sex. Nasty again....

[x] I have had feelings for someone who didn’t have them back. more once and it SUCKS

[ ] I have stolen something from my job.

[x] I have gone on a blind date.

[x] I have lied to a friend.

[x] I have had a crush on a teacher/sub.

[ ] I have celebrated mardigras in New Orleans.

[ ] I have been to Europe.   But I want to... I want to.......

[ x] I have slept with a co-worker.

[ ] I have been married.

[ ] I have gotten divorced.

[x] I have had children.

[x] I have seen someone dying.

[ ] I have been to Africa. I don't want to...

[x] I have driven over 400 miles in one day.  as a passenger

[x] I have been to Canada. BC DUH! I live here

[ ] I have been to Mexico. 

[x] I have been on a plane. 

[ x] I have seen the Rocky Horror Picture Show.

[ x] I have thrown up in a bar.

[ x] I have eaten sushi.

[ ] I have been snowboarding.

[ ] I have been skiing.

[x] I have met someone in person from the internet.

[ x] I have been moshing at a rock show.

[ x] I have been to a moto cross show.

[x] I have lost a child.  

[x] I have gone to college.

[ ] I have done hard drugs.

[x] I have taken painkillers.

[x] I have had someone cheat on me.

[x] I miss someone right now.

[ ] I don't like anyone in my town enough to call them a "friend".

  Thanks Vallerie I will come back and catch up with you soon ((((Hugs))))

Haven't I been here and done this before?

At certain points of the day I have really felt like I was reliving the first half and middle of last year. (March to August 06).

Same thoughts, same feelings. Hell I think I even heard myself say some of the same things!.....Creepy <shudder>

And since that time in my live wasn't a particularly pleasant one, I don't think I want to relive any of it......

OK there WERE one or two nice moments.....Like the RS concert that I dearly want to relive but the rest of it I could do without.

Well Tessa had a great time at the Ball and can't wait for next year.

This Saturday is the Annual Ceremonial Review and Tessa is doing 2 presitations, so yes there will be more pics...

I'm finding that I really like just getting a disposable camra and taking it in and getting it put on a disk, that way you don't have to worry about dead batteries, full memory card or anything like that.

Yesterday my friend had her surgery, she came out of it just fine by the time I got there she was all bright eyed and bushy tailed, her hubby and I stayed well after visiting hours.

One nurse came in and gave me a little bit of a dirty look and looked her watch then walked out, without even asking if my friend needed anything for pain (which she did)...BITCH! the nurse not my friend, My friend was trying to holdoff on taking anything because she wanted to visit with us some more but I could see she was hurting, I told her that she really didn't want to let it go too far because once you get behind the pain nothing will help it and that really SUCKS. So I went in search of the hag nurse and told her to give my friend the good stuff.

Hagalla said she would give her something when I left, I said I wasn't leaving until my friend got what she needed and was settled for the night....SO THERE!

My friend got her shot, I tucked her in with Tessa's teddy bear, made sure all her drinks, books and pictures were in reach while her hubby went in search of a step stool to get me in the truck...

GEEZE! everyone I know has these big honkin pick-up trucks that I need a ladder to get into! He couldn't find one,(a step stool) so I said I would just take the bus but, my friend (now slightly whacked on morphine) got a little upset about that, she didn't want me waiting at the station that late at night for a bus it worried her, so the hubby and I promised to find a way to get me in the frikken beast!

I really didn't want the hubby to pick me up because he has back problems and I ain't no light wieght and I didn't want to hurt him, but he did it anyway, pretty much just threw me in...LOL!

And all was right with the world.

Good thing I didn't just take off for the bus because, my friend called us on the cell phone even before we got out of the parking lot to make sure I was in the truck...Does my friend KNOW me or what!?

She called me at 7:30 this morning, she's more then ready to come home, which she will be this afternoon after talking with the Doctor.

Happy Wednesday All!

Cindy

All the pics you see were taken at Tessa's friends house.....PINK walls YUCK!......LOL!

Enjoy!

Well I had a full weekend, and it's not really over yet but what I have planned for the rest of the day is pretty boring so I'm not going to blog about it....

Friday night Tessa and I met Mo. What a sweetie she is! It was so cute, Tessa had been fighting me about going with me to meet her,(Mo) because she (Tessa) is REALLY shy and being around people she doesnt know makes her nervous, but instead of being all quiet and and trying to fade into the wallpaper she got CHATTY! Tessa really warmed up to Mo and was talking poor Mo's ear off about everything! From cadets to the view from hotel room (on the 14th floor) It was nice to see Tessa come out of her shell like that.

Mo and I chatted about a few things too...LOL! She really is a warm sweet person and I'm so glad we got to meet in person...Oh and Mo even got to meet my Mother when she came to pick Tessa and I up.

Saturday was CRAZY! Tessa and I were up and running around getting all the stuff together for the Ball. Tessa left before I did to get to her friends house so that they could get ready and leave together, I gave her a list of things to take and I had a list of things I would bring later I needed her to take most of the stuff because I was bringing dinner for everyone so of course she was in such a hurry to get out the door she FORGOT half the stuff!
So I packed up everything and off I went....

Only to realise just as I'm about to get of the bus by the friends house that I FORGOT to grab Tessa's ticket off the desk! ARRRGGG! OK no time to panic...I stayed on the bus and went to my Mother's instead. She had Tessa's dress and was going to drop it off anyway so I didn't think it was too much of a problem to have her take me back home to get the ticket....Turns out it was a good thing I forgot it because I didn't know that Tessa's stockings WEREN'T with her dress at my mother's.....What joy that was when I tried to find them in the black hole (aka Tessa's room).

When I walked into the friends house with stockings in hand all I said to Tessa was "Guess what you are doing tomorrow?"

Tessa didn't even pretend to not know what I was talking about, her answer was. "Spending the day in my room..."

Such a smart child I raised!...LOL!

Well then it was time for a light supper, makeup, dresses and hair, funny thing is Tessa had lost some weight since her last fitting so we had to do some pinning. It was going to take her forever to get out of that dress....LOL! Not a bad thing to my way of thinking....*GRIN*

I got some really good pictures and as soon as I get them on to a disk I will post them.

Well I hope everyone had a great weekend.

(((Hugs)))

Cindy

Some times the days just seem to run together. This week has gone by so quickly, so yeah OK it was a short week with the long weekend and all but still....

I want to thank everyone for their kind words for my friend, she is is doing alright and her attitude is good, I'm SO proud of her for that, she has tapped into a strength I always knew she had but I'm not sure she knew she had until now.

Later today I get to meet one of my blog friends in person, Her name is MOJO on here and I've been visiting her space for about nine months or so,her space is private but let me tell you she is PRICELESS! and chickens FEAR her!...LOL!

Tessa and her share the same birthday and a major crush on Mike Rowe (the host of Dirty Jobs).

So later We are going to meet for a quick coffee because in true MO style she has a very full weekend planned and so does Tessa.

I hope everyone has a great weekend!

~Hugs~

Cindy

My best friend in life has breast cancer, and all I'm feeling is completly utterly PISSED OFF!

She is only 37 and has no children and it looks like no she won't be able too, what with radiation and chemo.

She is going in on Tuesday to have the lump and limphnoned removed, and I can't go with her becuase I have to work and I can't find anyone to replace me.....Yeah I'm pissed off.

 

Ok It's a little while later I think I should explain....

I'm not angery with my friend I'm just really piissed with the situation, I'm still going to try and get someone to take over the kids for Tuesday.

The dental specialist went better then I thought.....

Of course I fell completely a part as soon as the dentist walked in the room but other wise it went pretty good.

I think I scared her a little because I was sitting in the chair just vibrating and had pretty much lost the ability to speak, yes I have a phobia and the more I tried to calm down the more upset I got.

I did make her laugh though, when she saw how upset I was she said, " Awww I'm not a scary person!"

I said "No it's not you, I'm not scared of you, your just little....." And she IS! She looks like she just got out of High School!

She looks very young and pretty but she's been in practice for a while, I also know that all of the dental surgeons at this clinic are at the top of their field, so my fear as nothing to do with the type of care I'm going to receive or even the pain that I might feel, pain is nothing new and lessens over time I know this and accept it.

The dentist said (after looking over my medical history) " After all the surgeries you've had, I'd think this sort of thing would be a piece of cake you, what is REALLY upsetting you?"

"Ummm I don't know.....It's called an IRRASTIONAL fear because there ISN'T a rational reason for it!.....SHEEESH!

Yeah at this point I was getting a little pissy, I do that when I'm scared sometimes.

From what the dentist could see she said it looked like they would be able to save all my teeth except one in the back, even she was surprised that my teeth weren't in worse shape considering, that most people with Cerbal Palsy lose their teeth as teenagers......(LOL! leave it to me to buck the system yet again...LOL!) she'll know more once the x-rays are done wich they will do once I'm asleep, she thinks it would be best to do even that once I'm out, because of the vibrating in fear thing.....

Now all we have to do is wait for an OR to open up, wich could be in 2 weeks or a year from now.

She did mark my case as urgent (because there is one tooth that needs a root canal, believe it or not it is the ONLY cavity I have.) but it could still take some time.

I hope everyone is enjoying their long weekend, (Victoria Day, May long weekend here in Canada),

I will be around to visit soon I promise!

~Hugs~

Cindy

It's early Friday morning.....

The kids are here half asleep, Tessa is still asleep, but I'm preparing for the daily battle, I have both threats and bribes at the ready.

I'm really hoping the bribe works I'm not in the mood to get into a fight this morning.....~sigh~

I'm going to go to the Dental specialist today after the kids leave, I have to say I'm a bit FREAKED about it.

Tessa still hasn't done any of her make up classes for the the class she needs, two days weren't her fault but the other two were.

All I have to say is she better go today and every other day until the dance otherwise she's not going.

It's harsh I know but I have to stick to my guns.

I hope everyone has a great weekend.

~Hugs~

Cindy

I promised.....

I took Tessa to the pediatrician yesterday, she is VERY healthy, other then headaches that we have to do a month long diary for and the stomach thing that this Doctor is guessing is stomach migraines......? never heard of those before but the way he described them it seems to fit better then IBS or gall stones.

But then again it is just another guess, hopefully the stomach specialist will find out.....It is very frustrating not knowing for sure.

Also I may have to be a REAL mean Mom and not let Tessa go to the Cadet dance, I got a call from one of her teachers the other day, concerned about how much school she has missed....Well I know why she's missed school and I believed that we had worked out a way for her to catch up and it has worked in her other classes but apparently Tessa is not doing the make up work in this one class.

Soooo, unless she goes to the after school classes everyday until the dance she can't go.

Anyway I hope everyone has a WONDERFUL Wednesday!

~Hugs~

Cindy

I really shouldn't be blogging right now....I SHOULD be getting ready to take Tessa to the specialist (One of 3 we are going to see in the next 2 weeks) This one is for the headaches she's been having, it's taken FOREVER to get in to see these people and now it's all happening at once!

Well I guess that's good right? Get it all over and done with.

I'll be back later with an up date....

I was going to go to dinner with the family, but I had a bit of a power outage and my Rick came over as soon as he got back from his riding/camping trip, and he brought a mikey of rye with him......EVIL! OK not so evil because I REALLY needed a drink.

MAN! am I a cheap drunk......

 

Thank GAWD! I get to sleep in tomorrow......

Yeah. No that's not going to happen, we are going shopping for shoes and unmentionables to go with Tessa's gown that I just got from the dress maker.

It's BEAUTIFUL!

It fits her perfectly and the red of the trim and shawl matches her birthstone perfectly as well so getting jewelry will be easy.

The gown is for the Cadet Tri Ball on the 26th, but as soon as we have the other stuff we are having pictures taken....Really you have NO idea what a big deal this is....Not just the Ball but getting Tessa in a dress a formal Ball gown no less! It really is a once in a life time thing...LOL! She's SUCH a tom-boy.

I was going to take her to a photo studio to have the pictures taken but she would have none of that, no way, no how! because that would mean she'd have to walk around the Mall in her gown...Nope can't do that!

But I did talk her in letting one of our neighbours who is a photographer and has a beautiful backyard (in full bloom) take the pictures.

As soon as I have those back I will post them.

Happy Friday All!

Update

Gotta love the internet!

I'm sitting here listening to a radio station out of Milwaukee listening to a real time interview with Rick Springfield....SWOON

But at least life will be a little easier money wise now.

I have agreed to take on a 3rd kid.....

I know, I know! I'm crazy and despite the rules I have set down , (in writing) by the end of August I might be found in the corner in the fetal poistion sucking my thumb and calling for my Mommy.

Happy Thrusday All!

I'm off to make a new budget.

Invisible these days, in spite of what's going on around these kids I'm looking after.

It seems everyone I call isn't answering their phones, and when I do get a hold of someone the only answer I get is " Thanks for calling, and we are looking into the issue."

And I'm not just talking about business type things.....

My friends as well just don't have the time to even pick up or answer the phone for 2 seconds to say, "Hi how ya doing?" Or "Sorry I'm swamped right now, I'll talk to you later.

Yes I know I've been a bit of a recluse lately, but that's only seeing people in person because of my mouth this infection has done a REAL number on my teeth and I'm a little self conscious about it. (OK a lot self conscious.) 

The damage happened SOOO fast, thank God I can get it looked at and maybe fixed quite quickly.

PLUS the last couple of times I have gone to the store, I swear people either don't see me or they think I look all meek and shy and won't say anything when they butt in front of me they soon find out THAT"S not the case.

Like I said in my last post my faith in human kind is being sorly tested.

Happy Tuesday All!

Pease watch this.....

 

The layers of this situation just keep peeling away like a stinky rotten onion......

SO I knew that I was going to watch the kids during the normal hours, not a problem but I thought that if I had a Dr's appointment or had to run to the store it would be more then alright to leave them with Tessa for a hour or 2 after all she's 15 and has been babysitting for a couple of years now and knows how to deal with almost any problem that could come up, I have trained her well.

But NO I can't do that! Because this social worker guy has said he is going to do surprise check ups and if I'm not here, (even if the kids are in school) "There could be a problem"....See what I mean by power tripping?

You know, my faith in my fellow human beings is being sorely tested!

Or maybe I'm just bitter because I SHOULD be getting on a plane headed to Milwaukee for 5 nights of fun, music, and meeting the one and ONLY celebrity/Rock star I've ever wanted to meet! WHAAAAA!

Oh well maybe next year.

 

HAPPY MONDAY ALL!