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6月28日 Well....I survived the bus rid with the kids...I only had to take two of them the other two went to a friends house so that was good.
But the 2 I did take were a bit of a handfull, not that they were bad, they just don't pay attention they both have ADD to some extent and are very easily distracted, but by the 3rd time a car almost hit them,(I swear they thought STOP! meant GO! ) I lost it! I could feel the grey hairs sprouting out of my head....OIY!
I found a bench to sit them on and read them the riot act, the younger one looks at me when I was done and says "No more yelling please." I look at him and say "Then LISTEN to me!" He comes back with a very simple "OK."
He did listen to me after that, but his older brother didn't....Sheesh!
Today I took all 4 to the McDonald's Play-Place about 4 or 5 blocks away, it was a good thing I had the older girl with me because with the swelling in my feet I couldn't keep up with the 3 younger boys, and trying them to walk as slow as I was just wasn't fair, she did a good job of keeping them together and in my eye sight and when they got to far away she made them stop and wait for me.
Going to the Play place was the BEST idea I ever had!
It was well worth the 24.00 lunch cost me.
We will be doing it again but maybe we'll just stick to ice creams from now on...lol.
It was a good opportunity for me to watch the youngest of my little charges.
I had him last year for a short period of time and I was trying to help him get ready to enter kindergarten but he just wasn't getting the concepts, it was frustrating and stressful for us both that I just ended up giving up because I knew I wasn't going to have him that long only 3 weeks and I realised the Mother wasn't backing up my work at home, which really PISSED me off.
Anyway I've had him again for a little over a month (I think) now, and I've just let him get used to being here and comfortable which he never really did when he was here last year.
Today I was able to watch him completely unguarded I knew that he had some social and vocal development delays, but honestly I put a lot of it down to being in a new place and and playing the baby for his Mom and brother, but over the last few days I've started to think this may not be an act...
After watching him for a couple of hours interact with other kids and not just his brother, a light bulb went off in my head.
I noticed that his body movements, speech and comprehension is that of a 3 or 4 year old. (he is 7)
I am relieved to have this new understanding because now I know what to work with him on.
The only thing I don't understand is why his Mother doesn't see this, and she is always telling me that "Oh he can do this or that.." Then when I try and get him to do same thing he can't or won't.
But I think I got a glimpse of why tonight when she picked him up...
When you ask him a question it takes him a while to answer you and most of the time he will just give you a shy smile and try and get away without answering, then when pressed he will give an answer like "Cause" meaning because, or "I don know." Yes I meant to leave the "t" off.
Same goes with when he wants something he will either just point at it or in the case of wanting his shoes tied or jacket done up he will just stand in front of you until you guess what he wants
Then if he realises that he HAS to speak it comes out like " I pay outside?" or "I pay wiff toys?"
Anyway he was doing that sort of thing tonight when his Mom picked him up and instead of correcting him and making him say what he wanted clearly she just got frustrated, I guess I can understand, but it's about him not her isn't it?
Well I'm off to bed I have to get up REALLY early and get Tessa to the hospital for her CT scan.
Good night
(((Hugs)))
Cindy 6月27日 WenesdayToday is the last day of school for the younger ones and it's only a half day.
Today I have 4 kids and once they are back here from school I have to load them all on a bus and get to the hospital X-ray department to pick up some medicine Tessa needs to take the day before her CT scan on friday.
Thee is a Dairy Queen on our way back home maybe if they are all good we will stop for ice creams, I know I said I wouldn't take all the kids on a bus again after the nightmare trips last year but I really don't have a choice now do I...OIY!
At least on friday when I have to take Tessa for her test I won't have to worry about any other kids...
It's funny when I wasn't working I had all the time in the world for these test to take place but it just wasn't happening, but NOW that I'm working and DON'T have the time they are all happening at ONCE.
The thing that bugs me the most is that I warned the Mother's that this could happen and that they needed to have back up, I even gave them enough notice of each appointment....Did either of them get back up? Noooo. Hence having to take all the kids on the bus today.
Friday is another story altogether I told both Mothers about it 3 weeks ago and I said in no uncertain terms I was NOT going to take any kids that day, so far there has only been slight whinning that they can't find someone to watch the kids....Well I guess they will just have to take the day off now won't they?
GAWD! I'm bitchy these days....!
I hope everyone has a Wonderful Wednesday!
(((Hugs)))
Cindy
6月26日 2:30 am...Or more like it just after....And by the time I'm done this it will be more like 3:30.
I went to bed at 8 pm, very tired and ready to sleep the night through.....I should have known better...
I woke up again at 1 am got up had a snack and some coffee, (no not decaf I'm one of those people that caffeine doesn't affect.) I sat down at my puter and checked in on all my friends with flashing stars beside their names as well as a couple that don't flash for me and no I didn't comment, you can all line up and spank me later K?
Yesterday was a strange day for me, I was looking after the kids but I felt really dis-connected from them...Like I was here but not. Know what I mean?
I'm not feeling all that good at my job right now...meh I'll get over it.
The swelling in my b00b has gone down, funny thing is I didn't really notice the swelling until it went away( I felt the swelling under my arm but, not in the b00b it's self....Hmmm seems to be the kids aren't the only ones I'm dis-connected from...LOL!
With that swelling gone other parts of my body have taken up the cause....My feet look like Hobbit feet....Ewww, I'm not too worried about it though, I know it's because Sunday I had 2 fast food meals as well as popcorn at the movies, WAY too much salt and fat for this chicky in one day.
I got a call yesterday, I'm going in for my dental surgery on August 17th YAY! <whimper>
Have I mentioned before how much anything to do with my mouth FREAKS me the HELL out? And now I have over a month to sit here and think about it, joy of joys!
OK so I promised some stories about my attempts to drive a car....
When I was 16 my boyfriend at the time thought it would be fun to try and teach me to drive, I told him that I didn't think it was a good idea...I was still sort of scared from the attempt I made a few months earlier with another friend of mine where I almost took out a line of parked cars...I'll tell that story another time (there are about 5 "Driving attempt stories" ).
Well anyway he wouldn't listen and said that HE could teach me to drive.....
We went to this wide open field it was pretty much clear except for this one tree.....You can see where this is going already can't you? As we started out all was good, I sat there getting used to the feel of being in the drivers seat adjusting the mirrors and all that generally wasting time because I was nervous. Finally I started the car, I barely touched the gas peddle there I was going about 5 miles a hour, the BF let me do this for a little while letting me get used to the feel of movement but I guess he got bored with that and told me to go faster...I tried got scared and stomped on the break giving us both whip-lash I'm sure. He yelled at me I yelled at him...Next thing I hear is TREE!
Now you have to understand this field was big enough that the was no reason I should have even gotten close to that tree, but I did....To this day I really don't know how I managed it but I side swiped that poor lonely tree not once but twice!
The next attempt was 2 years later....And that involves bushes and a bear.
10:30 pm
I just wanted to add....
It's so strange to have ny baby working full time!
She's loving it, sometimes it's just hard to accept she is a young woman now....WHAAA! I want my cookie stomping baby back!
6月24日 SundayHELLO!
ANYBODY OUT THERE??????
 I sort of have a lot to write about today....
First off, when I asked on here (and Facebook) If anyone was crazy enough to teach me to drive I really didn't expect an answer.....I was JOKING! I don't think I will ever drive a car, but I will come back to that later...
Yesterday I got up early thinking that I would have to work but I didn't and that was good because then I wouldn't have to take two little boys with me to renew my ID, I also lucked out that my mother was already up and going and she decided she would drive me that was very nice, saved me a 90 minute bus ride.
On our way home we stopped and got take out, just before we pulled into the carport my Mother called Tessa and told her to meet us outside to have a picnic with us.
People walking by my house must have thought we were nuts! There was my mother and I sitting in the car while Tessa was sitting on the hood of the car eating cheeseburgers and drinking milkshakes....What A sight we must have made LOL!
After that I took my meds and felt the need for a nap, it's weird sometimes I feel just fine after taking them and others (like yesterday) I really have to lay down.
I only planned on resting for about a hour or so, but I ended up sleeping for FOUR and half hours! I woke up and Tessa had made herself some dinner, I know she's old enough to do that but boy do I feel guilty when I sleep through dinner time.
OK it's a few hours later, I just got up from another 4 hour nap....
So back to yesterday.....
After I got up my friend called and we decided to go to the cheap theater, we saw " The Invisible" It is a VERY good movie I suggest seeing it when you can, it held my attention from start to finish and that is a rare thing for me.
You know? sometimes it just smacks me in the face HOW different my friend and I are....But since this is going to be quite long as it is I won't get into that right now. We get back from the movie my friend stay awhile, I finally got myself to bed at 3 am, I fell asleep quite quickly and dreamed the strangest dream.
It was a dream within a dream, in the dream I woke up at 4 in the morning and decided to walk to the all night coffee shop in the strip mall near my house as I'm walking I fall asleep but, I'm still walking! I'm fighting to open my eyes but I can't, then when I finally do I wake up in my bed not having gone anywhere. Then in real life I DO wake up and it's 4:30 am....Weird eh?
Well I get up a putter around the house for a bit and then I went for walk to the all night coffee shop.....LOL! the dream gave me an idea so it seems.....<grin>
I got back home and started this blog but got tired again and went to bed....Exciting huh?
Well that's it for now, come back tomarrow for the driving stories, they are funny enough to deseve thier own blog.
Have a great Sunday all!
(((Hugs)))
Cindy 6月22日 Week Wrap-up
I hope everyone has a great weekend, I have one more day of work but that's OK I still get to sleep in a bit. (((Hugs))) Cindy 6月20日 Q&AQ&A with Cindy.
6月19日 The Plan workedMy friend made it over here in time for us to get to the Dr.'s.
I told the Dr. what I felt and he said " Put a gown and let's have a look."
He took one look and said, "You have an infection."
I did see some blotchiness but I didn't think too much of it, my skin gets blotchy.
Anyway he did an exam and said he didn't feel a lump and that I felt was a bit of swelling in the limphnode from the infection.
He is still sending me for a b00b smoosh just to be sure even though I'm not 40 yet, so it's a round of antibiotics and going back in 2 weeks.
I did get bitched at for taking so long to get my INR done, (for those of you who don't know, that's a blood test that I have to get done because I'm on blood thinners.)
Apparently it's been almost a year....Really? OOOPS!
Anyway I hope everyone has a great night! The PlanThe plan (yesterday) was for me to get up call my friend and wake her up so that we could go to the Dr's early so that we would get the chance to see him during his walk in hours, because I couldn't get an appointment that worked around the kid's schedule.
But of course my friend couldn't get out of bed.....
I would LOVE to put it down to everything she has gone through in the last little while and I can see that being the case THIS time.
BUT, (and you can call me a bitch if you want too) She does this sort of thing ALL the time and has for years.
I hate having to depend on others to get me where I need to go.
It's gotten to the point that I'm thinking of finding another Dr. One that is closer to home so I don't have to depend on others, but I really don't want to do that, my Dr. is one of the best hence the difficulty in getting to see him.
So....
The plan for today is the same as yesterday, if it doesn't work out I will just have to wait until Saturday and hope that I can get there early enough (by bus) to see him. That should be fun becuse I will have to take 2 kids with me well not too bad because I will just make Tessa come with us and she can help.
Is there anyone out there crazy enough to teach me to drive?.....No?
Didn't think so.....LOL!
Take care all, I will be around to visit soon I know I've been a bad blog buddy, I will try and do better.
Love you all!
(((Hugs)))
Cindy 6月17日 Because it's Father's DayI know all your life you wondered About that step we all take alone How far does the spirit travel on the journey You must surely be near heaven And it thrills me to the bone To know daddy knows the great unknown... My Father's Chair still standing there
All alone since the long night Now it's three years on and I still feel He'll come home, we'll be alright So where's this healing time brings I was told the pain would ease But it still hurts like the first night That night my brother, my mother and I Were looking up at a distant star And wishing we could reach that far And back in the house And alone for the first time We told each other we cared And I avoided My Father's Chair I watch my family, we hold on We are strong and we'll be alright The clock continues counting down, all the while And every child will share the long night But do the spirits meet again Why am I still so filled with doubt Is my soul everlasting And the far distant future When I knew you'd be gone Came too fast and stays too long Why do they leave the weak of spirit And take the strong When the world turns sour And I get sick from the smell And I can't find no comfort there I climb into My Father's Chair Lyrics > Rick Springfield Lyrics > Rick Springfield ~April 24 1981/My Father's Chair Lyrics 6月16日 Saturday OK, Someone smack me up side the head!
I really need it.
It could be that I'm just worn out from working for 14 days straight, (and If I hear one "Oh it was just babysitting." I won't be responsable for my actions.)
But MAN do I feel crappy.
Yesterday I got puked on....EWWWWW!, it wasn't cause the kid was really sick, it was because he was worn out from Sports Day at his school and he ate his supper WAY to fast.
I was also told in so many words that I'm imagining the lump under my arm, not by the Doc, (haven't seen him yet)
But by someone else, who I was already kind of mad at NOW I'm really PISSED at him.
Sometimes I really HATE life!
And Now I feel guilty for that because I KNOW things could be worse.
MEH! I'm going to go sit in a corner now.....
6月15日 FridayHi there!
It's friday.....YAY! And I don't have to work tomarrow.
Funny thing is that when I agreed to watch the third boy, I told the Mother I would NOT work Saturdays and she said that that was OK but she did have to work one Saturday a month...Ok fine not a problem I can handle that, but so far she has asked me to watch the kid EVERY Saturday so far, I have said no of course, so I think she got the hint. And I don't have to work...YAY!
I know I said I was going to go to the Doctor's today but I'm not....Don't look at me that way! I not wussing out I just remembered that I haven't done my blood work for this month, so that's what I will do today,THEN I will go on Monday,
When I have the kids I only have time to do one trip a day,
Taking transit really sucks sometimes.....And I refuse to take these 3 kids on the bus with me.
I did it a few times last year and it was a NIGHTMARE each time so I refuse to do it again.
So if they want to do something this summer it better be walking distance, or thier Mothers can cough upthe cab fare, wich sometimes can be cheaper then bus fare for all 4 of us.
Also because it is Friday...YAY! I only get the brother and sister this morning, (the Mother only works a half day.)
Have a great weekend All!
And if you plan on having a drink, have one or three for me would ya?
(((Hugs)))
Cindy 6月14日 Yet another depressing blogMy Mother checked the lotto tickets and BUPKISS. I'm STILL getting fall out from the other night, well gee I guess the truth hurts doesn't it K?....you HAG! But don't worry not only is Karma a really good RS CD, it is also a bitch with a whip that seems to have painted a big bright shiny bulls-eye on my butt. I woke up today not feeling to bad sort of ugh but not too bad considering, my friend April comes over to tell me what the Doc had to say..... Good news the cancer did not spread, but the mass was bigger then they first thought(they DID remove it all), and she will be going for chemo and radiation treatments. Her hubby and I have both promised to shave our heads if she losses her hair.....Good thing I look cute in a bandanna. Well I went to have a shower after my friend left, and of course it being that time of the month I do a self (breast) exam. I started doing them when my sister was diagnosed with breast cancer about 6 years ago. Guess what? I felt a lump under my arm.....shit. I'm going to the Doctor's tomorrow I hate going to the doctor's! Good night and drive safely! 6月13日 Can't think of a title...
6月12日 I Hate it when I doShit like that!
What I did was spend over a hour last night typing out a blog as to what happened last night when I went out with Rick and his Mother and SCUMBAG of a sister, that earned me my bitch badge and a place in hell with a view of the 7th circle, most of what I said and did was warranted and a long time coming, one or two things were said in anger, although true, they were mean and it really wasn't my place to say them.
As a result I got a early morning phone call asking me to remove the blog...
And like an idiot I did just that....
GAWD I'm such a fool!
I will at one point re-write it, because DAMN IT! This is my place to say what I want, but for now I'll leave it be.
Suffice it to say that last night made me see for 100% sure that I was right to say no when Rick asked me to marry him.
Sadly we have broken up yet again, and this time I think the friendship is over too.
The really sad part of that is, that doesn't bother me as much as it should, oddly I feel freed some how.
6月11日 So I survived.....The weekend.
I was so tired last night I could hardly see straight....I was going to say "walk straight" but I don't do that at the best of times anyway...LOL!
You'd think being that tired I would just fall into bed and go right to sleep, you would think that because it makes perfect sense.
BUT, you would be wrong, oh so very wrong.....
Because me being me, and I have sleep issues I laid my head down and was WIDE awake my brain going 90 miles a minute down numerous dead end roads.
Around 2 am when I was just dosing off I remembered that it was Sunday night,well early Monday but whatever it still meant that I had to be up in just a few hours to watch the kids.
So I set the alarm while silently weeping.....Yes at 2 am I AM a drama queen.
Now onto this morning.
I have to say for only getting a couple of hours sleep I haven't done too badly, I've vacuumed, and royally ticked off the 8 yr old who was trying to watch cartoons, really it was quite funny, as I'm vacuuming he is GLARRING at me as if to say, "How DARE you interrupt my T.V. time!"
He was going to say something, but I saw out of the corner of my eye is sister look at him and shake her head....Smart girl! He settled on pouting and covering his ears.
Then I put the dishwasher on as well as a couple loads of laundry (one for the dryer and one for the washer), now the only reason I'm telling you this is because of the reaction of the 8 yr old...
You see the set up of my house is very open, much like a loft so when all the machines are going it can get a little noisy in here, not really conducsive to watching T.V.
Well once everything was going and I was about to pat myself on the back for getting all that done before 7 am I look over and the boy is just bawling is eyes out, quietly but still bawling.....Uh Oh!
My first thought is ear infection and that all this noise is hurting his ears...So I ask him "Do your ears hurt?"
Him: "No."
Me: "Did your sister hit you?" (she's known for doing this a lot.)
Him: "No."
Me: "Then why are you crying?"
Him: " Because I want to watch cartoons, and I can't hear the T.V."
Me: " You can turn it up."
Him: "Really?"
Me: "Yes really."
I don't know why he thought that he couldn't turn it up, have no clue. Despite what Tessa and Jake thought this weekend I'm not THAT much of a hard ass...
Anyway he turned it up so he could hear it and promptly fell asleep.
Getting up at 5 am is hard on the little guy.
I let him sleep until it was time to go to school, he woke up in a better mood.
Now that I've done all that I think I need a little nap.
There is more I want to write about but I think I've bored you enough for now...
I'll be back to bore you some more later...
6月10日 Sunday Morning....
Happy Sunday all! 6月8日 And The craziness goes on...
I hope everyone has a great weekend! 6月5日 Hi there,We had a couple of really nice days here, at the end of it we had a thunder storm....I LOVE storms!
But for the last couple days it's been rainy and damp, but still warm....The damp hurts and it needs to go AWAY!
There is a very real threat of flooding here if it stays this warm.
I'm up high enough that it really won't affect me but I do know a few people that are sand bagging their houses.
I asked Rick to take me to the Calgary Stampede in July....He said no.
Am I ticked? Yes.
Am I pouting? Yes.
Did he get nookie? Oh HELL no and he won't in the forseeable furture.
Am I a spoiled little brat? Yup and proud of it. 6月3日 A Great DayI'm a little pink.....OK a lot pink but it was a great day! Tessa had her Cadet Annual today...She did great! The whole corp. did. Tessa won the award for "Best 1st Year Cadet", also another Cadet from her division won "Cock of the Walk"....Yes one or two of the bus had fun with that, but all it means is that this Cadet had a perfect uniform at all times....GEEEZE! people get your mind out of the gutter will you! My brother and sister in-law were very impressed. And I must say that I had a VERY proud Momma day! Good Night (((Hugs))) Cindy |
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