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7月31日 Off I goTo see the anesthesiologist (thanks Diane).
Well in a couple of hours anyway.......
I DON'T WANT TO GO!
I am sitting here drinking my coffee, silently FREAKING OUT! (cause I don't want to wake Tessa up)
My stomach hurts.
My head hurts.
I'm all hot and clammy. Yup just a few steps from a full on panic attack......
Yes I know I'm making a bigger deal out of this then needs be but I can't help it.
Is it fear of pain?.....Nope.
Is it fear of being knockeed out for so long?......Hmmm, not really.
Is it the fear of waking up with missing front teeth?.....*DING, DING, DING!* "Give the little lady a cupie doll!"
Irrational?.......You bet your bippy!
I will be back later to let you know how today went.
(((Hugs)))
Me.
7月29日 *Blushing*A BIG thank you to everyone for their very kind compliments about my hair, and well wishes for my procedure......I'm blushing here!
 On Tuesday
I have to go into Vancouver and have a pre-op visit with the guy that is in charge of knocking me out, (I'm not even going to attempt to spell his proper job title....can't do it. But you guys are smart and can figure out what I mean.)
Then on Friday I will make my way to UBC hospital by bus, because I can't find a ride there, that's OK though I wasn't worried about that all I really wanted was a ride home, Which I have.
My brother is going to come and get me in his nice new PT Cruiser after work.
I told him to make sure he has a blanky and a bucket.....He shuddered a little at that one...LOL!
What he is really concerned about made me laugh, you see when I wake up from surgery I am one ORNERY little girl! Things get thrown, people get yelled at and possibly hit (usually my brother).
Meh, he knows I don't mean it, and he's a BIG (6 foot 3 inches and 350 lb) boy he can take it.
He said, "I'll come and get you, just don't yell at me or hit me OK?"
I said " I can't make any promises but, I'll do my best to be nice."
He sighed and said "Well I guess I'll have to come up with a good story to explain the black eye, telling people my little sister beat me up would be bad for my image!"......See what I put my family through?.....LOL!
I hope everyone is enjoying a relaxing Sunday.
(((Hugs)))
Cindy 7月28日 The New DoI cut all my hair off ......
A couple of my friends really don't like it, they miss the curls, but it is so much easier to take care of!
Also I am being put out for 3 and a half hours on the 3rd of August while they work on my teeth.
When ever I've been put out for that long my hair falls out in clumps if it has any length to it at all...I don't know why it does that but it does and I just don't want to deal with that....So snip snip all gone!
I hope everyone is having a great weekend.
Hugs
Cindy 7月27日 Friday (YAY!)Hi everyone!
It's 6:34 am and I feel good, I mean REALLY good!
I experianced (and still am experiancing) something last night that I haven't in so long it's not funny.....
For the first time since they started doing surgeries on me (at the age of 5) there is an ABSENCE of pain in my legs and feet!
On a scale of 1 to 10 I live at a 6 with a spike up to 7 or 8 later in the day and that's OK I can live with that I'm used to it, rarly it will drop to a 5 and that is WONDERFUL!
But last night I could honestly say the pain level in my feet and legs was at 0 (ZERO)
It was and is the most AMAZING feeling!
And I wasn't even drinking, in fact I didn't even take my regular amount of pain meds....
I was sitting with a friend of mine (that has known me for many many years) and I looked at him and said "I don't feel my legs....."
And he says " Uh Oh." and goes to pick me up and carry me to the car. Like I said he's known me for a LONG time and it's not the first time I've said those words to him , and they usually mean a trip to the ER.....But not this time!
I say, "No, I mean I don't feel any pain in my legs!" Then we just sat there looking at eachother *Blink Blink*
To be honest it kinda feaked me out, I mean to feel something so long and then it's just GONE feels SOOO strange, and becuase it was just out of the blue and I don't understand it, I'm going to the Doctor tomarrow.
The stangest part of this is the pain levels in the rest of my body is still at a 5 or 6.....WIERD!
Now I'm sitting here trying to figure out what I did yesterday that was any different from other day, and I can't think of anything...In fact I did a couple of things that normally would have had me popping T3's like Skittles....
Well I'm off to enjoy this, I will TRY and not over do it at least not until I have found out why this has happened.....
I hope everyone has a FANTASTIC Friday (((Hugs)))
Cindy 7月26日 Thursday (barely)So here I am still stewing about my day, it wasn't just having to stand in line for no real reason then someone else's screw up, it was also that my kid will listen and do things for others but when it comes to doing what I want her to do, it's like pulling teeth....And the real piss off is that she seems to take pride in that fact.
I can't even send her to a "brat camp" sort of thing or military school as a punishment because she LIKES that sort of stuff.......It's gotten so that I don't even want to talk to her right now.
I've tried to talk to her about this but all I get is "OK Mom, I do it." then she doesn't do it.
Or just plain "I don't want too" Or some other snarky teenager crap.
But you know it's more then not doing the chores it's the underlieing disrespect in the way she talks to me.
She KNOWS she's doing it too, but can't or won't give me a reason for it.
THEN there is my Mother.....
Today after I stood in line for TWO hours (no I'm not bitter about that.) I went to my Mother's to get a ride home, when we were leaving we ran into her apartment manager, this nice lady had met Tessa before but this was the first time I had ever met her but because of my Mother this lady knew my WHOLE life story!
Well anyway we are sitting there chatting and my Mother brings up my dental surgery (that is in 8 days , thank you, <whimper>) and the lady asks what I'm going to have done and I answer with "I'm not really too sure ......"
My Mother reaches over and sort of forces my mouth open and says "See she doesn't have any enamel on her teeth so there is a lot of work to be done.."
I pulled away shocked my Mother did this.
I mean really! what does she think I am?
A horse up for auction?.....GADS!
Well anyway I hope everyone has a good Thursday. 7月25日 WednesdayWell it seems that either Spaces is screwing around again or my computer is giving up the ghost.... I'm inclined to think that it is Spaces because I can get into other thing but not my space or anyone else's..... I F*CKING HATE this! It doesn't help that I'm in the WORST mood. OK Now after some cursing and one or two moments where I came very close to throwing my computer out the window, I am back in my space and not using Windows Writer..... Anyway I am in a BAD mood, I had to go and wait in line (for 2 hours) at a Government office because some little twit at another Government office apparently didn't know how to use a fax machine..... So now I have to spend probably another 2 hours on the phone getting this worked out. 7月24日 Tuseday part 2I have just a few more hours with the kids today,.
They are outside playing, the youngest boy has to get used to being here again after 2 weeks away....He has back slided a bit but not too badly, it shouldn't take too much to get him back on track.
The Mother that got fired yesterday phoned me just a little bit ago and told me she has a really good prospect for a job already...I hope it works out for her.....Not just because I would like to keep my job (which I would) but because if she doesn't have a steady job to stablize her, she will get into things she shouldn't.
Tessa did her first shift at Zeller's last night, she said she had a good time, I'm happy for her.
I really can't wait for the kids to go so I can read more of the 7th Harry Potter book.
I COULD read while they are outside but when I get into reading I get lost in the words and the world around me falls away....I LOVE that! But it's not so great when you have 4 kids with poor impluse control playing outside.
Maybe when they all go home I will run to the store and get some icecream then sit and get lost in the Wizarding world.
Tessa got the book just after midnight Friday and was finished reading it just before noon Monday.
The whole time that she was reading all I could hear was "Oooh" "Ahhh" and "Oh my!"
The only thing she said to me about the book was that I shouldn't read it to the kids....It's NOT for the young ones.
Well I'm off to start dinner....
~After dinner~
I know I shouldn't bitch because I knew full well what I was getting myself into when I agreed to take these kids on but.....
MAN! is it ever frustrating when I have worked so hard to teach these kids things that apparently thier Mother just doesn't have the time to teach them, only to have it wiped out.
I can tell the Mother didn't work with while she was on vacation.....
Before the two week vacation I had the younger brother almost out of the baby behaviour and making pretty good progress in other areas.
I said earlier that he had only back slided a little.....Well it turns out that he was being on his best behaviour, after he got comftable being here the the fun and games started again.....
I realise that the Mother doesn't get to see them all day, and doesn't want to spend what time she has with them nagging or whatever, but if she just backed up what I did here life would be easier for all of us.
I'm getting tired of being the "mean one"
Enjoy your night all! TuesdayWell I got an email back from the Info line, I in fact can NOT buy a fan club membership with the gift certificate....grrrrr!
I did buy a few other things with the certificate (because it couldn't be returned).
I got some other news today, the Mother of the brothers got fired yesterday from her job...She didn't give all the details other than to say I would still get the boys just not on a full time basis.
I think it's time to sit down with both the Mothers and straighten out what is going on, they are both being inconsistent with when I get the kids, and not bothering to call me when they decide to stay home ......Very frustrating.
Conversely I HATE it when my phone rings....LOL!
I hope everyone has a great Tuesday!
Cindy 7月23日 MondaySo I got the pin number for the gift certificate......And I can't use it for what I want.......WHAAAAA!
I put an email into the info line to see if they will help me.....
 I hope I don't have to wait too long 7月22日 SundayHi,
I'm not going to do a video blog again until I get used to the changes or the gliches are worked out which ever comes first....
I went out to dinner and a movie with my friend April last night, dinner was REALLY good , before we went into the resturaunt we stopped at the "Cops for Cancer" tent and got a cute, cuddly teddy bear from a really cute cop....
 (For a 10$ donation)Then we scooted over to the movie theater across the street but, the movie we wanted to see didn't start for a hour and a half, so we decided to go over to the cheap theater a couple of miles away....And we were surprised to see our first choice in movies was playing there as well and started in 15 minutes...BONUS!
Well I tell you I'm glad we didn't pay full price for the movie, it SUCKED!
We saw 1408 with John Cusack and Samuel Jackson.....The actors were good but even they couldn't save this movie.
It wasn't really scary and never seemed to ever really get going .....very disappointing.
Then we came back home.
My dear sweet friend decided that she was going to surprise me with a very generous "Just because" gift....
I had gone into the bathroom and when I came out she was on my computer visiting the RickSpringfield.com site....She bought me a gift certificate so I could buy a year long membership to the RS Fan Club!.....She did it so I could have access all sorts of things including early presale tickets.....The closest he is playing to here this year (so far) is Tacoma WA, 2 and a half hours away....and I'm going DANMIT! come hell or high water.
I can do a 2 and a half hour bus ride there and back, I'm going to make ALL the arrangements I WILL NOT miss out again, like I did the last time I let someone else make the arrangements.
I hope everyone is having a wonderful Sunday.
(((Hugs)))
Cindy 7月21日 SaturdayI don't know if it's just my computer or the so called *upgrades* MSN has been doing (which it most likely is because I've had a HELL of a time with this entry today) you can just click on this link:
and view it with no problems, if you are intrested that is.....
And yes I fully exspect some good natured teasing about my YouTube sceen name...LOL!
7月20日 Friday NewsGot up today waay to frikkin early, puttered around the house (started lots, accomplished NOTHING!).
Got the brother and sister, went to the grocery store, took the kids back to thier house so they can clean thier rooms, which I have to go and check on the progress in a bit.
That's why there is no video blog today, I'm at thier house, the dog hair is making me all stuffy and itchy, I hope the kids hurry up!......
It is now a couple of hours later the kids did a good job of thier rooms and we will be going for rootbeer floats in a little while.
I'm ticked right off!
while I was off doing whatever MSN has been fooling around changing things AGAIN! and my HOT yummy background is GONE! GRRRRRR!
Now I will spend some time getting it back.
OK so it wasn't so hard to get it back....happy now.
I forgot to mention that when I got back from the grocery store I got a call ans my dental surgery is now set for August 3rd.....good <wimper>
I really want to get this done and I'm really trying to be positive that whatever damage the infection did is fixable and I'll have my pretty smile back....
I will be knocked out for 3 and a half hours.....<sigh>
You people KNOW I won't sleep for the next two weeks right? 7月18日 Oh Look it's a talkie!I'm going to give this video blog thing a real chance here...
I'm sure they will get better as I relax more....So bare with me OK?
I know the picture quality sucks....Sorry
WoW! It takes a long time to upload on Youtube!
It might depend on how long the video is tho....I think.
Well Here's my video...enjoy!
7月17日 How to make it rain...
Yup, I woke up this morning to rain and very wet clothes......Meh! It's Ok though I just moved the rack under the over hang outside my back door, the kids won't be playing in the backyard today so it won't be in the way. I wish you all a very happy Tuesday! (((Hugs))) Cindy
7月16日 Spoiled Brat....That's ME!
Back in December I wrote this whole rant about people mostly teenagers, and some adults as well that have this sense of entitlement...click the link to see the entry it's actually very good even if I do say so myself..
Anyway I still feel the same way about what I wrote back then...
But I also feel a little hypocritical about it too...
Because I'm sitting here after just talking to my Mother and she is yet again providing me with something I need but don't want to wait for, yes I am paying her back but she is going to wait until I have caught up a bit more on all my other debts...How sweet is that?
I sat there in December and blasted all these spoiled brats who's parents bailed them out of everything and didn't make them take responsibility for their own actions...
And here I sit for the last couple of months letting my mother do the same thing for me....
See? I'm a hypocrite.....But I'm very thankful for my Mummy... 7月15日 Sunday morningIt looks like it's going to be a mild day today, it's over cast but not chilly, looks like it may even rain but that's OK I like the rain and my new little BBQ (that I haven't used yet because I have never BBQ'd anything before in my life and I have NO idea what I should cook for my first attempt.) is covered so it won't rust.
Tessa got her game system yesterday after a very loud argument.....
You know, one of these days my neighbour's are going to call the cops on us...ehhh. If they show up all wil say is she's 15 and stubborn and KNOWS what buttons to push, the ones she was pushing yesterday are the ones that turn me into a screaming banshee in about 0.1 seconds so yeah it got loud in here.
So after I settled down and told her that if she EVER tried to talk over me when I am trying to explain something again she will be hating her life more then she already THINKS she does.
We went and got her money out of the bank.
Another condition of her getting the system was that if she was going to waste her money like that I was NOT going to buy any of her school clothes or pay to have her roots done, so she better keep this new job and save her money other wise the system goes back.....
OK so I sorta caved, but I still get to keep my Mean Mom badge!
Happy Sunday All! 7月14日 It's Saturday...And I think this typing out a whole blog and then LOSING IT is catching!
Anyway here in point form is what I wrote about....
Any questions just ask OK? Have a great Saturday! (((Hugs))) Cindy 7月13日 Friday MorningI really enjoyed sitting out on my back deck last night drinking my wine and watching the world go by...
But the wine made me sleepy and I went to bed way too early and I've been up since 4:30 am...YUCK!
When I woke up I had to resist the urge to go and throw a bucket of cold water on Tessa, I had told her to shut all the windows and lock the back door before she went to bed.
Did she do any of that?
No she did not!
She is very lucky that we didn't get broken into. Luck and the fact that we live in a Co-Op full of nosy neighbours has a lot to do with why we didn't get broken into I think.
So anyway today is going to be a day of cleaning the house before it gets too hot .
Rick and I are going to have lunch today...I don't really know why I said I would, we haven't talked in almost a month and really after the last time we did, I don't think there is anything we have to say to each other....Sad really after almost 25 years of friendship, relationship, or whatever the HELL it was we had and I can't think of a single thing I want to say to him.....sad.
Anyway I hope everyone has a GREAT Friday!
I'm sure I will be back later......
(((Hugs)))
Cindy 7月12日 My Weekend Starts...NOW!
I just finished work (a hour ago) and was informed that I don't get the kids tomarrow.......YAY!
So off I went and picked myself up a bottle of wine and I'm going to sit in my back yard a enjoy a glass or 2 in peace.
I hope everyone has a peaceful night.
(((Hugs)))
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